God is very real and very much alive.
God tracked me down at the age of 18 years old in my college apartment bedroom. I was attending Southern Utah University on a college golf scholarship. Through a series of compounding events I was in considerable pain and torment and cried out to God, “Help me! Help me!”. He did!! Immediately!! That very moment I was flooded with the Presence of God inside. This was like nothing I had ever experienced before!! I was immediately comforted and just started talking with God. I later found out that,
“whoever will call upon the name of the Lord will be saved” Romans 10:13
Growing up I had gone to church religiously and went to youth groups and prayed at dinner times, but never ever ever had I actually experienced God. It was amazing now!!! It was like the most famous person ever just walked into the room and immediately we were friends and he and I were affiliated together. Looking back, my response was like a little girl on her first crush or something. I bought cds, posters for my wall, books and t-shirts and anything about Jesus that I could get me hands on. I told and wrote my friends all about what happened. (They thought I was weird…some still do! Ha!)
Since I didn’t know anything about God up to this point I figured I had better open a Bible or something. The fact that I even had a desire to read the Bible was totally different and a totally new desire. What college guy reads their Bible?!!? It was a new weird thing to tell you the truth. My whole life I ignored the Bible, but now I was seriously attracted and drawn to it. Being so naive I thought everybody knew God and I was just late in getting to know Him or something. (LITTLE DID I KNOW!!) I didn’t know where to start reading. The only Bible verse that came to mind at all was the one I memorized with my mother at the age of 3 or 4,
“For God so love the world that he gave his one and only son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life” – John 3:16.
After that first year of puppy love with God in college I became slumped and depressed. The way the world was going on around me just didn’t make sense. All I could see were people living a life contrary to what really mattered. I wondered if people could see and hear God as I was now seeing and hearing Him. Nothing made much sense. One Sunday evening I was practicing putting at Banbury Golf Course in Eagle, Idaho and I had a desire to just show up at the local Eagle church I had gone to as a boy. I just wanted something more and to just hang out. I didn’t know why I was going but I went anyways. After all I was bored, depressed, and didn’t care for much else. I didn’t know it at the time, but I was spiritually starving and very hungry. When I got to the church I literally walked into the start of a small college-aged Bible study called ekklesia fellowship. The guy at the door said hello, shook my hand, and asked some questions. He was pretty cool I guessed. I told him I had came from the golf course and had been going to this church building a long time and nobody, not one person, told me there was a college group going on. I was really glad to just be hanging out with other people who also wanted to read the Bible. That day was a miracle in my life. Without really knowing it at the time I had just walked into what would be the bedrock of some of the most life-changing truth for me. It was radical. Absolutely totally radical. Everything slowly started to make sense little by little as the combination of the written Truth and the Spirit (which was now in me) lit up my world to make sense of things going on around me. I could see!
I learned that what happened to me at college that day was that the Spirit of Christ Himself had came into my heart. I was now what the Bible says, “In Christ”. I also learned that now that Christ was living in me, by His Spirit, I was apart of something totally new that most are blinded too. More and more of life began to make sense and life became exciting. Still very hard, but all with underlining joy and excitement to keep figuring it all out. I learned that I could let Jesus live through me now since He lived in me! For me, this meant that I could let Him golf through me by getting out of His way (easiest, yet hardest thing to do). The golf course became and still is a place of hashing things out with my Jesus. I mean seriously, no where on earth had I ever heard or practically understood that the God of the Universe, Jesus, the One who beat death, wanted to live life with me forever and more than that….live through me!
God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of God’s glory displayed in the face of Christ. But we have this treasure in jars of clay (bodies) to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. – 2 Corinthians 4:6-7
“Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God.” – 2 Corinthians 3:5
I am now made alive spiritually ( my insides )! I was birthed physically ( my body ) through my mother in 1985, but now because of Jesus, my spirit is made alive together with Him! To help better understand what happened:
Before Jesus was in my life:
And you were dead in your trespasses and sins, in which you formerly walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, of the spirit that is now working in the sons of disobedience. Among them we too all formerly lived in the lusts of our flesh, indulging the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, even as the rest. – Ephesians 2:1-3
What happened in my college apartment room in 2003 between God and I:
But God, being rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in our transgressions, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), and raised us up with Him, and seated us with Him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the ages to come He might show the surpassing riches of His grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand so that we would walk in them. – Ephesians 2:4-10
Whats happening now with God and I today is that I live “by faith”:
I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me. – Galatians 2:20
“The righteous (those made right with God through Jesus – see Romans 5:19) will live (live life) by faith (looking to Jesus, letting Jesus live His life through me, getting out of His way).” Habbakuk 2:4, Romans 1:17, Galatians 2:20, Galatians 3:11, Hebrews 10:38
Looking back through my childhood years I could see quiet evidence of God speaking into my life in various ways. I think we brushed paths in an all boys “mountain man church camp” growing up. Also, I found a small plaque buried in the ground where I used to play with Philippians 1:21 on it. I also had been getting love letters from my grandmother for years. She had been praying for me a lot it turns out. She would share Bible verses in her letters that meant absolutely nothing to me at the time. BUT NOW, they are some of my most valued notes! (Don’t ever count out little old loving grandma’s)
If you have any questions about Jesus, the Bible, or your faith. Any at all. I would be honored and glad to help you discover who Jesus is. My email address is email@example.com